A Moment of Desperation

I'm so horrible with this. Honestly though, it's pretty hard to keep up with any of my thoughts anymore. That's what sucks when you're in the middle of maintaining a life. My life has become a monotonous cycle between hundreds of the same phone calls at work, laying around the house for a few hours afterwards, sleeping with sad dreams, and barely making it out the door on time to start it all over again. I get the bills paid and have to scrounge around with what's left until the next paycheck comes. It's official, Corporate America has taken over my soul.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I love my house, my car, and being able to actually afford it all. I just wish I didn't have to waste my time at a job that isn't going to anywhere. There's not any other jobs worth shit around here anymore. I want to go to school to pursue the possibility of something better, but that seems so far away. It's draining enough just working all week, and unfortunately I just don't have the luxury of anything else.

I mean sure, my parents could support me, but that would be just as bad. Sure, my job drains the life out of me, but my parents are the biggest leeches on the planet. If my life is going to suck, it might as well be on my own terms.

Ah, the story of my life.

Tiny Things I Hate: The Way Spin Magazine Describes Songs They Think You Should Listen To

In every issue, Spin includes a list of 10 songs that they recommend with a very quick description. One would assume that if you were recommending a song, you would describe it in such a way that the reader might be able to tell if it would be something they'd like. You'd try to place it in a genre or a combination of genres, you'd describe the sound stylistically, you'd name similar bands and artists, something like that.

Well, here are two descriptions that I grabbed randomly out of the issue I was reading when I decided to make this a TTIH:

Josh Reichmann Oracle Band - "Shivering Black" - "A stomping, sparkling sci-fi popscape that hits like a kiss from a starman you suspect is full of shit but still dig for his dance moves."

...um, what? What exactly is a popscape? Is a starman an astronaut? What is it like being kissed by an astronaut, and what does it SOUND like? What the hell does a starman sound like when he's full of shit? Is it different if I only SUSPECT he's full of shit?

And then...Florence and the Machine - "Dog Days Are Over" - "Florence Welch's clear, tuff-dart vocals are the killer constant as bedsit folk gives way to girl-group bomp, dissolves into ethereal Kate Bushisms, and ends on a romping rave-up."

Again, WHAT? Tuff-dart? Bedsit folk? Rave-up? I mean, maybe these things are words, but why do they have to be so pretentious about it? It's really off-putting and definitely not going to entice anybody to listen to the song. If you're trying to describe a song people don't know, you need to describe it as it relates to things people DO know. The "stomping, sparkling" bit from the first one is okay, it's a little purple but I think most people would get the general idea of what that means in regards to a song. And girl-group bomp, that works, people can figure that out. But half the time these things read like there's some sort of contest at Spin headquarters to see who can cram the most metaphors into a 30 word description, and you get bonus points for every obscure music reference you make. Not that I'm calling Kate Bush obscure, but other descriptions make a lot of weird references. If you want to compare to another band/artist, compare to Bowie or Dylan or the Stones, not Godspeed You! Black Emperor.

The makeup I ordered from Everyday Minerals came in the mail today! Yay! I just tried some of it...it looks decent, I'm sure it would be better if I had some good brushes. Or, y'know, if I was capable of applying makeup well. I tried one of the foundations and I didn't want to waste it so I only used a very little bit this time but it seems to have evened out my skin tone a bit and it didn't completely cover up my freckles which is good. My freckles are one of the reasons I never wear makeup, because I hate covering them up. And I tried the concealer which I like a lot. And the blush, too - I really love the color I got, but I'm REALLY bad at applying it - it's so hard to get a small enough amount! But it blends really well, way better than cheap crappy blushes.

So you should all go get a free sample kit from Everyday Minerals. You only pay the shipping which was $3.28 and you get sample sizes of three foundations, one blush, and one concealer. And they're good sizes too - the little jars are a little over an inch across and about 3/4 of an inch high (although the part that actually holds the powder is about 1/2 an inch high). So five of those is pretty decent for $3.28, they're definitely going to last me a while. It's really hard choosing colors, though, but I just went with my best guesses.

Unrelated: shirt.woot had another random shirt day so I ordered three more random shirts. YAY! They won't be here for another week but I'm excited. Still no box of misprints for me though - oh well.

ugh that's IT.

I am so tired of clothes not fitting or looking horrible even if they do fit.

I AM DETERMINED TO SHED THESE EXTRA POUNDS.